Joey is moving out tomorrow. I know that it is time and how things should be so why is my heart so heavy? I have had a lot of people ask why I’m sad he’s moving out – after all, he’ll be in town and I can see him anytime. It’s true, but still the heavy heart.
Would it feel any different if he was moving to Australia or even Wyoming? Maybe. But I think it’s not where he’s going that’s so hard. I think it is that things are changing. For 23 years of my life, I’ve had kids in my house. Things have developed into a nice rhythm and I enjoy that rhythm. Now something is changing…and I’m not READY.
I find myself wanting to go up to new parents or parents with small children and warn them. I need to tell them to enjoy every minute. No matter how tired or frustrated or busy you are to savor each and every moment. Because that part of your life is over way too soon.
I have read the Bible through a couple of times but it’s funny how every time you read the Bible, no matter how many times you have read a certain passage, God brings something new. Here are some recent gems:
“For the ways of a man are before the eyes of the Lord,
And He watches all his paths.
His own iniquities will capture the wicked,
And he will be held with the cords of his sin.” Proverbs 5:21-22
“The night is almost gone, and the day is here.
Therefore, let us lay aside the deeds of darkness
and put on the armor of light.” Romans 13:12
For you were once darkness, but now you are light in the Lord. Walk as children of light (for the fruit of the Spirit[b]is in all goodness, righteousness, and truth), finding out what is acceptable to the Lord. And have no fellowship with the unfruitful works of darkness, but rather expose them. For it is shameful even to speak of those things which are done by them in secret. But all things that are exposed are made manifest by the light, for whatever makes manifest is light. Therefore He says:
“ Awake, you who sleep,
Arise from the dead,
And Christ will give you light.”
There is also a song by Glory Revealed called “Wake Up O Sleeper” based on Eph. 5:14 that is just fantastic. You should definitely check it out.
I’m still working hard on the South Beach Low Carb Diet. So far, I’ve lost 15 lbs. and 12.5 inches. I do really good most of the time but still struggle with my emotions dictating how I eat. I just have to keep working at it and remember that I didn’t get to this point quickly so I’m not going to lose it all quickly either. Still…frustrating.
We are getting internet and cable back this weekend! Can I say that I have really missed Deadliest Catch, Dirty Jobs, and House?
Our garden is still doing ok. We never got any tomatoes to speak of (but then, neither did my FIL who usually gets a bunch) but we have gotten a bunch of peppers of all shapes and sizes, some eggplant, and we have 5 icebox watermelons currently growing. All in all – a good experience. We will definitely garden again next year.
I definitely feel better when I pray and read the Bible so why don’t I do it constantly? To paraphrase Paul – Why do I NOT do what I want to do???